Marius is my 5th child. He’s clingy, even more than his siblings were. I was guessing because he lost his twin, he is extra clingy. When people ask me about Marius, I usually answer, ay he’s extra clingy. Realizing later on that I don’t want him to be known as the clingy baby. He’s a very happy baby actually. At 7 months he already knows how to kiss. He’s also a tall baby and already knows what no means. More than being clingy, he is an adorable baby. Make that SUPER DUPER ADORABLE!
Pero teka nga muna! He’s only 7 months old. He is supposed to be clingy. Let me rephrase that. He is supposed to be with me most of the times! He needs my milk, he needs my warmth, he needs mommy all the time. He is actually not clingy, there’s just so many things I wanna do.
You know how I can secure deals while breastfeeding and I am thinking, I could do more if I am on my pc. I can do a lot if I just stop and get out of the bed. If only Marius would let my boobs go.. or if only he’d sleep more deeply, I can get up. The thing is, every time I try to move, he’d move! He’s sabotaging my “work” time!
Or like when I need to be there for my other kids? You know when one of them needs me or that when I need to go to school because one or two of them left something behind. You know, moments like that. But Marius won’t let me go.
I rot in our bed breastfeeding while the world goes around without me.
AND I HAVE TO STOP RIGHT THERE.
I realized that right now, my world is him. I mean, yeah, I have 4 other kids but they’re all well enough to be on their own in a way. And the internet, my blog, my social media accounts, it can all wait. In this age where everything is fast pacing, I need to slow down and re-learn how to be a mom! I need to chill and be more kind and forgiving to myself. I know I am great at a lot of things but I am greatest being a mom.
Just so you know, I am writing this with sore boobs since I let Marius fell asleep on my boobs. I did not rush him to sleep and he made me finish this post! Hurray!
Aaaaaand almost a week after, I thought I am done with this post and I am not! A few minutes before putting a featured image, the little boy cried and so I had to stop and put this on hold.
And I am back because he is with his lola which he missed so much since we were the Ariel event the whole day yesterday.
So what am I trying to say? Ah yes, that I am relearning how to be a mother again, in the world where everything is fast. It’s hard di ba?
Obviously, I am just too busy, my mind is too busy. He is not clingy, he’s just being adorable.