When we learned about this pregnancy, I was shocked. It’s not a mixed feelings, it’s really shock and nothing on excitement. I wish I could say it was just a few minutes of selfishness but it was not. It lasted quite a long time before the shock turns into excitement. Having a lot of kids is not that easy and then another one? Oh no no no no…
However, I realized that this is such a huge blessing! Not just the fact that we were able to produce another human being but also because this baby came at the right time. We’re moving to our new house and our finances are doing good. As compared to when we had my other kids, those were difficult, but now, life is easier! There is no more reason to be afraid.
And as the husband puts it, we can always find ways for “our time” even with a new baby.
But still, a part of me is is having a hard time accepting it… I just don’t know if I can still give that much love to another baby.. specially after Sati. She’s our only girl and I couldn’t deny the fact that I am so in love with this princess. I am just do not know if I can love this coming baby as much as I love her…
Of course, my kids are all excited! Sati really loves the idea of her being a big sister and she loves it when we call her “ate”. So I accepted my new baby wholeheartedly with a promise of loving her/him the same way I love ate and the kuyas.
But God has a way of getting the best out of me. Seeing how easy motherhood was for me and knowing I can very well take care of my kids.. He gave us not just one, but two babies!
We’re having TWINS!
To say we’re excited is understatement! Sobrang nakakakilig itoooo!! God really knows what we need.. and though it would be very challenging for us, we’re ready to face it with His guidance.
I started writing this blog post a month ago… and while I wait for my first trimester to end before publishing this blog post, we learned that the other baby vanished… the condition I experienced is called Vanishing Twin Syndrome. If want to know more about VTS, please read my blog post about it: Vanishing Twin Syndrome is True And I Experienced It