I did something terrible a while ago.. I did something bad and I hate myself for doing it. I hate myself so much.. I will never forgive myself for this..I was blinded by anger.. Mommy acted so bad.. I promise I will never do it again.. never will do.. not once not slight.. never.. I am so sorry for what ever pain it caused you.. I love you.. I love you so much.. please don’t think other wise.. I love you.. it pains me.. I hate myself for doing it.. really do.. I am trembling now as I type this.. I am crying.. my whole body is in pain.. I am so sorry.. How can I ever erase it?
I am so bad and really hate myself for it..
Sara says
March 18, 2009 at 5:17 amPephotThat was so touching and sad. You are such a great mommy and this just warmed your heart. I love coming to your site every day for your posts. This one was so heartfelt.HugsSara
Enchie says
March 18, 2009 at 7:00 amWhatever it is Mommy, writing it down will surely help you release everything…
Chris says
March 18, 2009 at 7:54 amSometimes as mommies, we want to do everything perfectly, but we are just human. I have done things which I regret too. I feel for you Pehpot. As you have written it down here, it would also be good if you can say sorry personally to your kid too. Even if he doesnt understand it yet but still you apologized to him, I am pretty sure it would have a big impact on his life too.
fedhz says
March 18, 2009 at 7:26 pmaw.. my hair is standing up while reading this. I also posted almost the same in mylot. I regret a lot of things like shouting at and slapping my kid. There are times that I just act and not think… I'm trying to control my anger. So far, I think the shouting and slapping lessens. I realized that when I'm so tired or I wanna do something, it just frustrates me when my kid is following me around and bugging me to do this and that (to play with her or she wants to play with my things). I guess I just need to buy her more toys to keep her occupied. lolI try to stay calm and gently talk to her. But yeah there are times that I just wanna explode. At least boyfriend is there to be as civil to me and remained calm to explain to our baby what she should and should not do.
redamethyst says
March 5, 2010 at 11:10 amwe are not perfect. sometimes we do make mistakes, coz we are human. just make your son understand, I know he will.
niko says
March 18, 2010 at 1:11 pmawww, naiyak na naman ako, hmp
Mommy Jes says
January 22, 2012 at 10:13 pmmadalas ko dn ma experience to peh i feel very bad tlga after….:(
jared's mum says
January 23, 2012 at 8:08 ami was on the verge of writing something like this at one point. sometimes the pressure of motherhood will finally take its toll, at ang mga anak natin ang nagiging receivers. thank you for sharing this with us, mommy peh, for letting us know that we are not alone in our motherhood worries + to remind us that we are humans after all, who will be mad + tired at times, pero it will not make us love our little ones less…hugs!
lovingly mama says
January 23, 2012 at 10:31 amhay…same here…naawa na ko kay dindin. i have hurt her physically many times na. and i really regret it when the anger subsides. but the damage has been done.