Pregnancy Journey: Is It A Boy Or A Girl?

Can I just say, hopefully for the last time, that I am hoping to see two babies for my gender detection ultrasound? I am still not letting go of the other one, it may not seem like it but my heart is still broken.

The ultrasound was not what I hopeD it to be but of course I am happy to see my baby on my tummy.. playing and being the little one I pictured it to be.

So it is a boy or a girl?

Part of me was hoping for a baby girl.. para may kalaro na si Sati at para may gagamit pa ulit ng mga clothes nya na tinago ko. Part of me, uhhm actually I always pictured it to be a baby boy. I just don’t think I can love another baby girl the same way I love Sati. I don’t think I can be fair with them.. si Sati pa rin talaga ang mas magiging matimbang for sure. Even the Mister shares the same sentiments. Sati is our only girl and she is more than enough for us na.

God really knows what we desire and what is right for us.. He gave us Marius!

YES! We’re having another baby boy!!!!

The name Marius does not come from Les Miserables though it is the best musical play ever. if I have to get a name from that musical, I’d go with Ramin.. or maybe Enjolras haha

He’s first name is in honor of Mama Mary. You know how difficult this pregnancy was.. the vanishing twin syndrome, dealing with sadness, dealing with bladder is full but I can’t pee pregnancy problems.. and dealing with sadness again.. and again and again (which I no longer publish because.. uhmm most of it are for private consumption na lang). All those dealings, I call her name to help me get through. There are times that I’d cry quietly and just call her name or recite the rosary. During my bladder ordeal, I felt some contractions. I pray like I have never did before and called on to her… and I promised myself that I will honor Mama Mary by naming my child after her.

Mario is too common di ba.. so Marius it is! I can’t wait to welcome baby Marius on February!

Meanwhile, I’ll be busy shopping for baby clothes and baby stuff (kung kailang ako magkakaroon ng new baby tsaka pa nawala partnership ko with Baby Company and Pampers haha).. I am still contemplating if I should buy a new crib or look for a second hand na lang. Wooden crib at SM, nasa 10k na pala!!! Jusmeeee! Wala pa ang crib bedding dyan ha. Peroooo this is going to be exciting.. it’s been a while since I shopped for baby boy clothes 🙂

P.S. The baby shoes was from Enfant Facebook Page.. ang cute di ba?? I wanna buy it for Marius!