I feel so hot and no not that kind of hotness.. if it has been the case, I wouldn’t be complaining here, heck you wouldn’t even find me here.. Hot as in I want t take a bath every minute. And then the vomiting and nausea..
I am on pills again.. and the side effects is killing me slowly.. it drains my energy.. it has been 4 days since and all I do is stare on my PC, do nothing and feel nauseated.
I really hate this feeling.. I wish I can use other form of birth control. I can’t do tubal ligation due to financial constraints.. and yeah I chicken out. I can’t do depo or injectibles.. high blood will kill me. I can’t do condom, er it’s not effective. I know all of you knows that. And that leaves us to two option, one is IUD and the other, vasectomy.
IUD. I am still contemplating on it.. still afraid..not on the side effects but the act of inserting the T shaped rod on my vagina straight to my cervix. And not to mention that I need to check on it from time to time. Just the thought of it makes me cringe.
Vasectomy. Now that would be the best option, for me of course.. but not to my husband. Can you give me at least two names of a husband who had undergone vasectomy with no issues at all? Let’s face it, our country is very rich in macho culture. And having the ability to have kids is like a macho symbol. And if that ability is gone, it’s like their manhood is gone too. Other concern like, lost interest in sex is another thing. Oh gawd, guys can be pain in the ass.
But little by little, he is thinking about that option.. or at least he is pretending he is interested on it.
Oh wait, I need to throw up now.
