I feel like I have my own day care center here.. 5 kids.. you can just imagine how it is. 4 of them are mine while the plus one is my sister’s who lives with me. Bathing them alone takes 30 minutes of my time. Every morning we need to prepare the 3 oldest to get ready for school and almost every afternoon I had to teach them to prepare them for the next day’s lesson.. wait did I say day care? I take it back.. I mean my own school! But I am not complaining. In fact I am more than thankful for having 4 kids and of course for having my nephew here. This is what I want to do ever since.. I really want to have a big family, lot of kids.. lots of laughter. I do not know where I got my patience, I enjoy playing pretend with them, doing art works, teaching them, spending an afternoon recreating their lessons for them to understand well. I love cutting papers and creating images that they will love or as simple as making an alphabet chart for them. I love doing it all but..
The thing is, sometimes I wish I don’t have to work online.. I do enjoy writing and blogging specially when I get to interact with stay at home moms like me.. work at home moms as well.. but the burden of having to earn makes it a bit hard for me. The pressure of deadline tasks against spending more time with the kids or doing some artworks for them is very stressful for me. I wish I can be like other moms who’s blog earning are merely for their hobby, travel or shopping.. if that would be the case I wouldn’t mind having no hobby at all or having not to travel or having no fashionable shoes to wear.. I would rather spend my time with my kids..
Part of my earnings also goes for my mom.. so even if I want to stop earning, I can’t. In a way, I am more satisfied now than I was before.. I get to earn a little and able to help my mom and still spend time with my kids since I work at home.. well there goes the saying, You just can’t have it all..
