I don’t know if I can still blog that much. I can post three times a day still but blog hop.. I don’t think so. I don’t have the energy to read my friend’s blog and think and comment. My first born needs me so much and it is very draining. He is having a lot of emotional turbulence right now. He lacks the motivation to move, to think and do what he needs to. I cannot abandon him during this time. He is my pillar of strength and seeing him slowly crashing right before my eyes kills me. I hate the fact that I can’t do anything. I tried letting him do whatever he thinks can give back his motivation but no use. I also tried reprimanding him, and still no use. I cannot think now, all I can do and be with him. Along the way, I thought of rebelling to what he is becoming but I can’t. I am made up with much more than that and I know, it won’t solve our problems. He lacks the will to do anything. He lacks the motivation, he lacks it all. What can I do for him when in fact he was my source?

I already suggested something to him that can take this all away, but are we ready for it? Can we face it? Oh darn!

What’s motivating you right now?

note: first born is hubby. just so you know…