This will be my last emotional post about Ondoy. I don’t want you to experience flash floods like we did (Ondoy related articles flood..). I just need to let this out and hopeful after this, I am done.

And though I am already making fun of what happened to us, I cannot deny the fact that I am still traumatized by it. There are times when paranoia hit me. OCD is to blame. There are so many what ifs in my mind and sometimes I cannot bear to think of it. People suffering from OCD are like that, images would suddenly pops in their head and they can’t do anything to stop it.. So instead of suppressing it, I am letting it out.

What if #1
What if we were out that day. We were to go to the drugstore to buy some meds for the kids. Good thing that heavy rains stopped us. If we went ahead as planned, we would be trapped in Ever Gotesco for three days. I cannot imagine three days without the kids. More so, I cannot imagine my kids without me and without food fro three days. It is plain unthinkable but I could not stop my mind from thinking the scenario.

What if #2
What if hubby is not at home. I am not afraid for our safety but for the hubby. I knew that he would try everything to reach us. I would have died worrying about his safety and whereabouts.

What if #3
What if the water rise up to the second floor? What if we had to be on the roof and wait to be rescued. That would be the hardest thing. Thinking about it makes me feel nauseated and yet the image of us on the roof keeps popping out in my head.

whew! what a post.. oh well at least I am done unloading..

and please don’t tell the kids, mommy is still afraid.