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Depressed No More

My depression is slowly wearing down. Remember I told you I was depressed because I think Chico, my third son, does not love me anymore. OK, not exactly but he no longer depends on me. he prefers to be with our helper than his mommy. I thought I would need natural depression treatment to treat my depression. It turns out that I only need some time with him. As of Monday afternoon, I have been trying very hard to stay away from the computer and just be with the kids. It feels so good. Suddenly the kids are more loving to their mommy.

bonding with Chico

It’s a bit hard though, I came to a point where I breathe blog and now I have to limit my time with it, it’s difficult. I am trying my best not to think about blogging. Whenever a good topic comes to my mind, I dismiss it immediately. If I would entertain it, I would just end up sitting in front of the computer and typing my thoughts away. And if you are wondering how I am able to blog right now, well, they are sleeping. That’s my new schedule, blog when the kids are sleeping, and yeah I am happier now.

I Want To Spy

Did I tell you that I already got the best helper? I got her last July. She have two daughter, one is in Davao and the other one, I hired too. I planned on hiring another helper this year but I changed my mind. During the height of the typhoon and the flood, I realized that I have too many kids that I cannot take care of them in emergencies like that. And so, I asked my helper if we can have her second daughter with us. I was lucky that she was OK with it, in fact she has been contemplating about it.

She is my 4th helper to date and she promised me that she will never leave me (I am positive about it). She is very responsible and I can leave the kids with her (yes even Sati) without worrying. I remember in my 3 other ex helpers, I badly want to install hidden cameras because I am so worried about the kids. Hidden Camera can give me an assurance that the kids are well taken care of. I know it is not good to know that you are being watched (unless of course you are in Big Brother’s house) but that’s the best option for me then. I am really grateful now that I don’t have to do it.

But it can be cool too, sometimes. Imagine you can install it everywhere. You can put it in the clock, on the speaker, anywhere. I love the idea of it. OK, maybe I will get one, not for our house but for hubby’s car. Maybe I will put it in the dashboard, on the tissue holder. I can “spy” him if he has a companion on the car. Please don’t tell him about it .LOL

I will Stop Blogging

Yes, I will stop blogging for now. Oh no, not really stop but limit my time blogging. My third child, Chico, was affected by my non stop typing and blabbing. For weeks now, I noticed that he no longer likes to sleep with and he ignores me most of he day. Kaye knew how depressed I am because of it. So now, you will see less of me. Although I will still go on with my blogging schedule (updating my blogs at least 2 times a week), I will have to make a time table for that. I decided that I will only go online when the kids are already sleeping (specially Chico). That means I can go online around 10 in the evening and/or 4 to 6 in the morning. Well, it would give me more time with the kids. At the height of my breakdown, Niko, suggested we go out on date. Me, Chico, her and Yena (and maybe Fedhz can come along). I think it’s a good idea, we will bond with our kids and have fun window shopping too. We can check out the latest in Free People. I hope we can find a boutique here. The car will be here (hopefully) this week, and yeah maybe we can have that “date” with our kids.